Chapter X~ Sitting with my elders
I'm at a really pivotal point now where my mindset and perspectives are shifting. More and more I crave peace yet I am breaking out of a cycle of creating chaos for myself. There's a lot I have not been taught properly; how to take accountability, how to honestly be independent within myself, hell how to budget. It seems as if the information I have learned up until this point is come se dice pointless. Yet the beautiful thing about learning all of these this year is that the Most High gave me individuals in my corner who are able to guide me. I felt alone for a while after my father passed ( we'll revisit that subject in a later chapter ), and I cocooned myself off for a really long time. Afraid to honestly get connected to anyone; afraid to be vulnerable and truly be myself. To be frank I am restarting from ground zero in a sense. I reteaching myself discipline, community, kindness, honesty, vulnerability, and confidence I honestly could continue to go on. Whilst I hav
